Hey everyone! I'm jus sayin hi and that im hopin to return very soon.so much as happened u wudnt believe me if i told u. i hav a new life now!there is more hope than ever b4. miss u all so much.

luv ya all!

i wont b able to reply to any recent msgs cus some things hav happened concernin me possibly becoming homeless. also im not able to access my current mail as i cant get it to work usin my boyfriends ps3 which im usin now. rly srry. hope to b bk soon. luv u all.x

Everything is blank. My head is completely wiped out. I don't know what I'm doing. I guess this is the result of the way i let people treat me. The damage that I never thought could exist. In trying to stop the hurt I've just gotten myself lost. I sleep all the time now, and I can't decide whether its because I'm tired or don't wanna be awake. I've blocked everything out so much that my mind and heart are so empty. I can't think. I haven't drawn or written for ages. I can't feel anything for anyone. I'm just trapped here in a body that isn't even mine. Its set on automatic and just follows any commands it recieves. Its too tired to keep fighting. All the people who were supposed to help. And I'm talkin officials here. Have just turned around and told me that there is nothing anyone can do to help me- literally. Theres no way out. Everytime I look for an answer myself it just opens my eyes to the injustice in this world and so it allows me to see the answers everyone else is searching for. But where the hell is mine? I think it got lost somewhere...

Ok....I've been a little preocupied just lately so firstly apolagies to the authors of the whopping list of art I should have read or looked at, secondly apolagies to everyone because I haven't really posted anything for ages! I have been (and still am) dealing with family problems, revising for my final exams, and finishing off schoolwork, and haven't had enough time to even log in!!!

After sorting through my belongings I have found lots of art that I have either drawn or wrote starting from a couple of years ago leading up to a few unfinished art from the past few months. So......EXPECT LOTS MORE DEVIATIONS SOON!!!

It is also important that you understand that these works were created during a time when I was seriously depressed due to issues that some of you may already know about. This means that some of them are fairly disturbing! Plz do not be offended, or take the proverbial p! These are based on very real feelings which I felt at the time. Oh, and there is no need to fetch a straightjacket- my councellor is working hard to help me!!


Thanks for staying in touch and not giving up on me

Random Fun Quiz..........PRIZE = 1FAV!
Journal Entry: Thu Apr 3, 2008, 5:59 PM
This is a random quiz just for fun!!! I have changed my mp3 players settings to "play all random" and written the first few lines of the first twenty songs that come up. Try to guess the song and the artist. For the person who comes up with the most correct answers I will add one of their deviations to my favourites! NO CHEATING.

Song 1) "Well beat me up, and beat me down.
Mess me up in no recognition.
For what it's worth I'll do it again,
With no consequence I will do it again."

2)"Like the pills in your hand,
I will never let you down,
And like the bugs in your bed,
Under my skin now."

3) "Marylin Manson- Tainted Love" (guessed by ~horra001)

4) "Nickelback- How You Remind Me" (guessed by ~horra001)

5)"My Chemical Romance- Helena" (guessed by ~horra001)

6) "Billy Idol- White Wedding" (guessed by ~horra001)

7) "System of a Down- This Cocaine Makes Me Feel Like I'm on This Song" (guessed by ~gunsblazin)

8) "H.I.M- Pretending" (guessed by ~horra001)

9) "30 Seconds To Mars- The Kill" (guessed by ~horra001)

10) "Jack Off Jill- Nazi Halo" (guessed by ~horra001)

11)"I have to block all thoughts of you
So I don't lose my head
They're crawling like a cockroach
Leaving babies in my bed."

12) "H.I.M- In Joy and Sorrow" (guessed by ~horra001)

13) "Motorhead- Ace of Spades" (guessed by ~horra001)

14) "Evanescence- Going Under" (guessed by ~horra001)

15)"I'm not afraid of standing still,
I'm just afraid of being bored.
I'm not afraid of speaking my mind,
I'm just afraid of being ignored."

16) "Marilyn Manson- Evidence" (guessed by ~horra001)

17) "Black Flag- Nervous Breakdown" (guessed by ~horra001)

18)"Cursed Earth, Cursed Earth, Cursed Earth, Cursed Earth.
I will never feed off the evergreen luster of your heart
All because we all live in the valley of the walls
When we speak we can peak from the windows of their mouths."

19)" No prayers can reach me here
No light can touch
Among reduced Bibles, cigarettes and drugs
I carve your name in my flesh."

20)"It's poetry carved in flesh
This beautiful hell of ours
To the deadliest sin we confess."

GOOD LUCK